The big deal is I said the main reason i want to be staff is because I love being able to help people, while that is true, it's not the main reason, the main reason is, well, what this thread says
I have something I really need to get off my chest, I feel absolutely awful about this...
I'm just going to straight-up say it. I was selfish. I was an idiot. I lied in my app, and probably ruined my chances of ever getting staff again. But thats okay because now I know how bad of a staff...