Didn't want to really get myself involved with this thread/topic but knowing my name was mentioned quite a few times, best I express my point of view. Yes Pig I understand the whole "stole your best friend" right now, I don't even know what a friend is.. I've been diving for support to help me recover as last time I dated someone and they broke up with me it resulted into a huge fight and made me end up resigning. I don't want a repeat, I enjoy this community, I enjoy the players, toxic or not, we are all human. I understand how you can be upset at Goddess, but you need to understand nothing is her fault. There are many issues with me as a person, my maturity being my main issue currently which I did take into deep consideration and trying my best to clear up from it all.
I agree with the majority of this, did feel quite bad, but mine and Goddess's relationship was mainly between me and her. I really was stupid getting others involved and I apologize for that. Goddess, you don't deserve to be harassed by my mistakes, obviously, there's a reason you broke up with me (which I will no discuss here). I really hope eventually everyone can just brush off of this and we can just be friends and forgive and forget about my mistakes. I just wasn't really that perfection many say I am.. I have some cons to me. Many will realize I've practically made many mistakes in my life, gotten mad at
@Sub, never treated
@Hunye how she should be treated, not tagging this, but really ruined my reputation with a certain someone which I will not discuss.
@Lynn which I mistreated multiple times which was really wrong of me. Sorry for tagging, just would like to deeply say sorry to all those who I've hurt, I don't mean to do it nor ever intend to want to. I love this community, I love you all, I can't even say I 'hate' anyone cause hate is way too strong of a word.
Pig, she never really hurt me, more I hurt her, and yes I admit, I was truly an awful boyfriend (I'm sure many can agree). But now I know what I need to change for the future and improve on.
Everyone has a little bias in them, it's not something no one can't have, I will admit I have some bias but it's more on the part that I'm scared on how they'll react if I mute/ban them. Some handle it way worse than others.
Just want to say, Pig you're doing a fantastic job, the perks towards staffing is you are going to get some hate. We all do, just got to learn to hold it in or just walk away from it, try to avoid getting yourself involved in the drama/toxicity. If you ever feel like you need a break, they are always available just don't take too many breaks. Right after mine and Goddess's break, I had to take quite a few breaks, still not fully secure yet towards staffing but today I was motivated towards doing 30 appeals and spend 5 hours on appeals alone. I haven't given up nor plan on for a long time, I just hope everyone can just consider and take into thought staff have final say in things no matter what rank they are. Helper, Moderator, SrModerator, or Admin, we all are a community, we are a family.
Thanks,
JustACookie