...Alright don't cut yourself it accomplishes nothing. I've had kids in my school commit suicide and it's a bad event for everybody. It's probably a good idea to move on from minecraft though, get yourself out in the world a bit more.
you mean the 3 people who play survival?
Also: Just, just stop with the servers. The general consensus is to actually update Prisons (and factions too ig) and don't add survival. This is a business? Want to make money? Instead of leeching off the people who buy CGod on every server just because...