You say it doesn't hurt anyone? You get and money from the blazes the exp can either turn into money or enchants for pvp etc. Therefore you are benefiting from using with ac and people who don't have cheat are losing out since they can't just go afk and get hundreds of exp.
Another thing was before you denied having a auto clicker but now say you did. You had a better chance at telling the truth rather than Bull Sugarting everyone. You also got angry when we all confronted you about your lie, you acted very disrespectful.
Accept now that people will hold a grudge since you blatantly lied to not only the members of OPBlocks but the staff. You got angry since we caught you out and then you started going after us.
Best of luck with your appeal even though you have now admitted to doing what you argued so strongly against.
One last thing. If you are indeed suicidal I wouldn't say that on a minecraft forums. Such sensitive topics are rarely taken seriously on here, since most people who get banned say "I'm going to kill my self". Since you are in the UK I can offer you this advice. Go on
https://www.samaritans.org and they can offer you the support you need. If you are indeed debating suicide or in general need someone to talk to. You can even private message me for any advice or support.